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Etty Hillesum
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Reading
Put together from what the tradition attributes to each body, sign and house — a portrait to enjoy, not a verdict. The positions beside it are the part that can be checked.
☉ Sun in Capricorn · house 8
Who you are being when you are most yourself.
The drive to be someone in particular, pursued patiently, on the assumption that the return will be slow.
In what is shared: other people's money, intimacy, and endings.
☽ Moon in Virgo · house 3
What makes you feel safe.
The need for safety, and the habits that supply it, pursued carefully, by improving the parts that are not yet right.
In speech, siblings, short journeys and everyday learning.
☿ Mercury in Capricorn · house 8
How you think, and how you say it.
The way a mind takes things in and hands them on, pursued by building something that will outlast the effort.
In the joint account — debt, intimacy, inheritance.
♀ Venus in Capricorn · house 8
What you like, and how you go about liking it.
What is found agreeable, and how it is drawn near, pursued soberly, and with the long arithmetic done.
Where things are held in common, and where they end.
♂ Mars in Cancer · house 1 ℞
How you go after what you want.
The capacity to want something and go at it, pursued indirectly, and with a long memory for how it went last time.
In how you meet a room, and what people take you for on sight.
Retrograde — read as the same principle turned inward.
♃ Jupiter in Capricorn · house 8
Where you want more room.
The appetite for more room than is currently available, pursued patiently, on the assumption that the return will be slow.
In what is shared: other people's money, intimacy, and endings.
♄ Saturn in Gemini · house 12 ℞
The strict teacher you thank later.
The encounter with limit, and what is built against it, pursued by talking it through, and by keeping several options open.
In solitude, institutions, and what works on you unseen.
Retrograde — read as the same principle turned inward.
♅ Uranus in Aquarius · house 8
The urge to break something that still works.
The impulse to break a pattern that still works, pursued at a deliberate distance, on principle more than on feeling.
In what is shared: other people's money, intimacy, and endings.
♆ Neptune in Cancer · house 2 ℞
Where the edges go soft.
The pull toward what has no edges, pursued indirectly, and with a long memory for how it went last time.
In what you own, earn, and consider worth having.
Retrograde — read as the same principle turned inward.
♇ Pluto in Gemini · house 1 ℞
What will not be negotiated with, only survived.
What will not be negotiated with, only survived, pursued by talking it through, and by keeping several options open.
In how you meet a room, and what people take you for on sight.
Retrograde — read as the same principle turned inward.
☊ True Node in Pisces · house 9 ℞
The direction you keep getting nudged in.
The direction a life is pulled toward rather than born into, pursued permeably, absorbing more than is strictly useful.
In long journeys, foreign places, law and belief.
Retrograde — read as the same principle turned inward.
⚷ Chiron in Pisces · house 9
The sore spot you end up good at.
The injury that becomes a competence, pursued by dissolving the edges of the problem.
In the far world — travel, doctrine, the bigger frame.
⚸ Lilith in Aries · house 10
What you refused, and what refuses back.
What was refused, and refuses in turn, pursued head-on and at speed, with very little rehearsal.
In vocation and public standing — the thing you are known for.
The tightest aspects
♄ Saturn ◻ ⚷ Chiron · square, orb 0.08°
The encounter with limit, and what is built against it and the injury that becomes a competence obstruct each other.
The friction is productive only when it is worked at rather than escaped.
☿ Mercury ☌ ♀ Venus · conjunction, orb 0.35°
The way a mind takes things in and hands them on and what is found agreeable, and how it is drawn near are fused, and cannot easily be told apart.
Neither can act without the other coming along.
♂ Mars △ ⚷ Chiron · trine, orb 0.93°
The capacity to want something and go at it and the injury that becomes a competence run together easily.
Easily enough that it is often not noticed, and so not used.
♄ Saturn ☌ AC Ascendant · conjunction, orb 1.63°
The encounter with limit, and what is built against it and the face a life presents before it says anything are fused, and cannot easily be told apart.
Neither can act without the other coming along.
♃ Jupiter ☍ ♆ Neptune · opposition, orb 1.67°
The appetite for more room than is currently available and the pull toward what has no edges face each other across the chart.
The tension is usually met by over-committing to one side and meeting the other in people.
☉ Sun ⚹ MC Midheaven · sextile, orb 1.53°
The drive to be someone in particular and the direction a life is aimed in public assist each other when asked.
Available rather than automatic — it takes a deliberate move.